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I Had Feelings...My feelings for you
Were no doubt there
And you shared them with me
Thank God, I swear.
But not too long later,
As I think over,
I slowly lose the emotion.
I don’t know what to tell you,
I surely don’t know how!
It was never a one night stand,
We still haven’t held hands,
And my lips are still a virgin to others.
Though I know how this goes
Yet I don’t I don’t remember
How to let you know
I want us to be over.
So soon it happened
It will be.
My feelings to you
And Again I Break DownIn the midnight
My pillow is wet again
Nothing can stop me from falling in pain
I turn my music on
Nothing else can be heard or seen
My face is twisted and frown
I cry in quiet silence
No one there to hear my mute weep
And inside my head there's a loud violence
I feel the strong desire to scream
Long breaths in and out
But my voice is nothing floating like steam
From the past painted images drawn to be shown
Unforgettable left memories and backgrounds
And far away I wanted my spirit to be blown
Convincing myself this is the last night
But yet the dark sorrow takes a hold
Fear runs through my blood when I turn off the light
A cold dry air pressed on my chest
Like ice hard and harsh it felt
And I'm still breathing for the coming days and the rest
For tomorrow I draw a smile on my face
Strange how shortly and it's erased
I turn out what a big disgrace
I think this is a way that I have fun
In crying they see is a waste of time
So they don't need me I'm better be gone
Cry It OutThe pain goes on for times where you think you’ll drown if it continues.
They say you shouldn’t cry for it will only make it worse,
That the pain will only increase.
In truth crying makes it better.
Showing that you can let go with tears isn’t a weakness
It shows that you are strong enough to let go of the misery that something has caused,
Don’t go to the blade.
Whether it makes you feel better or not,
Its not the answer,
It wont let the pain escape
it stays there
Don’t let the pain ruin you
Don’t mark up yourself for what could be so small it might not have been worth it later.
Just have faith in your tears, someday they might save you from yourself.
UnforgivenUnbroken dreams of the one that was so strong
Never being able to feel the love and happiness
Forever in the center of deaths door, waiting to be taken away.
Over time it seems like things get better but it always goes wrong.
Razors going against the skin making pain fade
Giving up sometimes seems like the only option
I look at people in pain, thinking about why it is so impossible for me to happy
Violence erupts around as the pain becomes too much to bare
Everything that wants to change changes for the worse
Nothing goes as planned and pain takes over becoming worse by the minute until death takes me under.
A MaskA Mask
I always smile.
I always laugh.
I'm always happy.
At least that's what I show.
All they see is but a mask
I never take it off
I always wear it,
For to live we must smile,
But I cannot
I cannot smile,
I always suffer inside
Everyday my heart breaks little by little.
While the other around me are unaware
That I am suffering
How can I smile?
How can I laugh?
How can I be happy?
I made this mask.
Forged out of the agony and tears that I shed.
I made a mask for others to see.
I made it so that's others will never see me.
The true me.
The me that's suffers
The me that is buried in darkness.
I wear that mask.
For one day
I hope I can take it off
And truly smile without the mask
But for now I wear it.
Hoping for that blissful dream to come true.
EmptyYou took the breath that I use to keep.
All the happiness that I once had is now gone with you
At times I tried to forget
With all the pain you caused
You broke me down over and over
I keep trying to move on,
but you keep coming back
But then you disappeared
I went back into darkness without you
It hurt when you left
Moving on without you left nothing there.
Its an empty spot waiting to be filled.
People come and go trying to reach me
But nothing helps
Its an empty spot inside of me
That can’t be fixed...
UnforgivenI sometimes wonder how you can keep going
With all that pain that you caused to someone
Who in fact that you claimed to love.
I believed you,
its a shame to say that I still do,
My question is why you chose to leave me for her.
Only after the fact that you still loved me.
I dont want to love you anymore.
But I cant stop,
I would say that I dont forgive you but I don’t have the heart to
Only because I still love you
I do believe that your wasting yourself on her,
You see something that I don’t
I see something you don’t.
I cant stop loving you know matter what I do,
your just that amazing to me
Something that draws me to you.
But deep down I still think that you are Unforgiven
For all the pain you put me through
And yet I still love you...
Dead Man's SwitchIn control, then not -
Sudden loss of grip.
Headlong to where?
Details lost, smudged, streaked.
Careening; no system of
No dead man's switch,
On a fast track -
With or without a god?
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